Where to run to?

Sorry I haven't updated lately. Truthfully, I feel like I am writing to myself- a few of us do talk on a regular basis get to hear all about my boring running schedule. :) No in all seriousness, I am just plain run down.

There are some personal things going on.I feel sort of alone right now, sure I have people to talk to but they are all in connection with Chuck and sometimes I think I need an outside opinion on things. I hate that so many of you live so far away... email and phone just don't do any justice.

On Monday, Brennan started therapy. This took a lot out on him. It's so sad how alone he feels and how many friends he does not have. It's hard when everyone has girls and that is what he is surrounded by but we are working on it. He is shy so unfortunately that makes it harder.

Last week I FAILED on my training program. I did not run at all on Sunday. Not once. I was so upset with myself but Sunday's 5 mile run was wonderful. It was fabulous and it made me realize I can always pick up right where I left off. So many schedule conflicts and hard times, I just didn't get time to myself whatsoever last week.
I am in better shape this week- Monday night I was feeling stressed and normally I go to bed or at least get in bed at 9, right after I tuck Brennan into bed but I decided to jump up- put my running clothes on and went for a 4 mile run. It was awesome. Well aside from the fact that I could not sleep afterwards - my body was ready, I was not.

I have another run planned for this evening and it will be a late run. I have a million things to do after work- take dog to the vet, clean up for showings tomorrow and then visit C's mom in the hospital. BUT I will get to run, that's a promise. If we talk tomorrow, check in with me. TIA!

I am feeling lots better but I know I have a ways to go. I am so darn hard on myself- I still can't shake this all or nothing mentality. It's awful- I know I will probably never overcome it completely but it would be nice to let it go a little bit. I am a huge control freak. I need to get a grip and let go, things will happen as they should.

A massage or pedicure is on the horizon for me soon- possibly this weekend if I have time. I need a time- out. I received many massage offers yesterady in the mail for new places opening, I just know it would feel great but man just relaxing in a chair and getting a pedicure sounds like heaven too. Which one should a girl choose?? Hmmmmm....