2 down, 13 more to go

It's hard to believe I am only starting week 3 of training. Last week posed a lot of challenges and struggles but I made it through, just as I will the next 13. I am the all or nothing kind of girl- a mindset I need to learn to resolve and move forward.

Man, oh man- where to begin? How about with my NSV? The best one I have received lately. People have been telling me my face looks thinner and I look great. I don't see it except my clothes are feeling much looser (which of course happens with running right?). Well last night I put on my running capris, was standing there talking to Chuck and the kids, and he says "wow babe, you really are losing your butt and have you really lost a lot of weight doing this." I said no, just 4 lbs but I know my clothes fit looser. He said just remember I love you the way that you are- not who you want to become. Awww yes he may be kissing butt a little bit about the puppy but I think he sincerely meant it.

Let's rewind to Saturday night.. Chuck got home early from fishing since they weren't having luck so my whole schedule got thrown off. My mom was on her way to watch the kids and he called- so I told her she didn't have to come. Well by the time I got everyone settled, dinner done- I wasn't running until 8:00. By this time, I ran on the treadmill at the gym because it was pitch dark out and wasn't comfortable running on the rural trail by myself. I barely made it through my workout. I was SO upset with myself. No I was mad at myself. Furious was a better way but more worried on how I was going to run 13.1 miles when 4 was such a difficult task.

Sunday's run was a piece of cake. I literally felt like I was running out the stress and trying to focus on my posture and my breathing. I don't run with music right now so I just listen to the birds or people talking and it's so calm and relaxing. I guess the lesson is learned that some days will be a struggle but I just need to keep pushing through- if everything was easy, there would be no need for improvement and training schedules. Then life would be boring, even though I admit that it would be nice to do every so often :)

My goal is to be proud of myself as I run through this training schedule. I am planning to modify it to fit in between the novice and intermediate schedule because I do believe I am fair in between kind of gal. Sheila reminded me to REST on rest days so I do promise I will not run today but I will take a walk with the kids and I may do some strength training/weight lifting.

Schedule for the week:
M- rest, T- 4 miles, W-5 miles, Th-4 miles, Fr-5 miles, Sat-4 miles, Sun-6-7

Thank you for your overwhelming support- the more, the merrier! Together we can achieve anything we set our minds to. As my signature says on the boards, 1step_at_a_time and I just know I can reach my goals. I tend to look to far ahead, I just need to take it one day/one race at a time.

*hugs*